Be strong and stick to your guns. Sometimes it seems easier to live with the burden then face the reality of the consequence of having it all out. But at the end of the day, you deserve to be happy. And trust me, living miserably is no way to live. I have had plenty of practise at it...lol.

The pain and consequence of confronting it and the remaffecations of this will pass in time. Being miserable doesn't unless you take the bull by the horns.

It can often be very liberating to get it all off your chest.

I have found myself in a situation with a group of good friends that have trusted me with info that sometimes i think i really would rather not know, but alas i do. Now everytime something happens and various things pertaining to it are brought up, I find myself humming a little tune and wishing like fuck i wasn't there and I didn't know. Too many people would be hurt and all for different reasons. But I am guessing by the sounds of it, this is a bit more close to home and somewhat different.

Good luck my dear, and find some inner strength. It is amazing just how strong you can be when you really need to. Take it from an expert in that field. Many people would have thrown in the towel if they had to walk a mile in my shoes.....of course, I AM MEDICATED, but hey, I am still here, and most days damn it, I am still smiling.